Dear Ceara,

Now i am really noticing my addiction has influence on my passions. One of my passions is soccer and
my country played the final of the worldsoccer tournament. During the game i needed to see some clips and missed a big part of the game. My mind is brainwashed one way or the other, i never miss important soccergames but apperently i think about you even during these soccergames on tv.

It’s stupid that you can sit back now and just follow the process of which you know how it will end. I know it too but try to avoid it. You will win, i know i have not a chance and will be exploited and abused more and more and will give you all the information you need to blackmail me.